My boyfriend’s graduation is coming up but I still dunno what to give him. Any suggestions?
This morning my boyfriend asked me to open his facebook account to check an email from his friend coz he cant go online. I opened his inbox and found the email there. I also saw some messages from his other friends, so I also checked them out. :P Then I saw a message from his girl bestfriend. Their conversation was in there, so I read it. While reading it I felt this anger, jealousy, bitterness! I was shaking and my eyes were filling up. There was nothing wrong with the whole conversation, I didn’t see anything foul or inappropriate, it’s just that I was so jealous of their closeness. I just coudn’t accept the fact that there can be a girl who can be close to him like me. I didn’t want any girl to be close to him.
He knows that I am jealous of their closeness, and we’d often fight about it. So I told him that I would “try” to be nice to her, and “try”to be friends with her just to avoid more fights. And I DID TRY. But really, it’s not that easy! Its not easy at all! Especially when he talks about her, when he mentions her name. I wanna tell him “So? The hell I care. That bitch.” But i cant, coz it will just cause trouble, so I just say “Okay.” or I just keep quiet. Deep inside I feel hurt. I feel jealous. He tells me that I shouldn’t be jealous coz their just friends. But dang, I cant help it no matter how hard I try. I’m afraid that you will fall for her like you fell for me. I’m afraid that you will leave me because of her. I hate this. I hate this feeling. :((